FUN

In addition to a New Year’s resolution, my mother-in-law always asks what word we would like to define the coming year. I think one year I chose something lame like organization, one year it was focus, and this year's word was FUN. Hmm...I am no expert, but I would say that this year was the opposite of fun. In fact, a cluster fuck of fuck still doesn't sum up this past year. I could string together all the curse words I can muster and it still wouldn't accurately portray 2013. Honestly, I don't even remember what happened before June. Nothing. I am a complete blank. It's like June came along and completely swept me off my feet and into a blender. A collision of feelings, super heighten emotions, intense anger, sorrow, freedom...the freedom was interesting though. That is what people mean when they say "like a weight lifted of your shoulders". I don't think I truly knew what that meant until this summer. There were still moments of levity; moments that I could somehow and unexpectedly breath deeper and clearer than ever before. But, fun? No. I don't think so.

Since September when we decided to commit to reconciliation, I have made an effort to add more fun into my life. I didn't want to take myself so seriously anymore. I wanted to take more chances, live just outside the box and enjoy my life. We have weekly Mystery Date Mondays, family day Wednesdays, I travel more with the kids when Jeff works on the weekends. I want to make up for lost time. Lost time with my family, my spouse and my friends that kind of lost me there for a while. I am happy to rejoin the living! I still have my (many, many) moments of insecurity, anxiety and depression, but I am getting there.

My best girlfriends and I took New Orleans by storm this past weekend. We had the most fabulous time walking the French Quarter, shopping, eating, drinking, eating, touring cemeteries, drinking, eating...we cannot wait to plan the next girls getaway! FUN!

Today I bought tickets to see Hedwig and the Angry Inch next April in NYC. My brother and I have been so excited about getting these tickets and we made it happen! FUN! A trip to The Big Apple in the spring. I should start saving now...that is what I call fun.

 

xoxo